No. 1, No. 2 and No. 3

No. 1 is the wife.

No. 2 is the mistress, which I am.

No. 3 is the woman who now makes him happy as I, like No. 1, does not interest him anymore. This girl is now the woman you once were. Vibrant, exciting, no-emotional baggage, non-demanding etc. This is now the woman he lies for with you. This is the woman you want to be again but its too late as you’ve now became No. 1 in essence without knowing it.

You are now the woman who chose to be content with the very little time he wants to spend with you as he has just added one agenda on his list of family, work, friends, interest, No. 3 and No. 2. (in order).

I guess the question is “How can you be No. 3 while being No. 2?”

Published in:  on May 27, 2007 at 10:14 pm Comments (6)

You don’t trust me..

Our biggest issue is TRUST.

I have to admit that I trust him less because I feel that if he can lie to his wife why can he not lie to me?

Why can he not lie about where he really is at night, or day, when he is not with me?

Why can he not lie about who he’s with?

Why can he not lie about flirting with others?

Why can he not lie about who is flirting with him?

He has been used to lying. I, a mistress, contributes to his being almost perfect with it and that is my issue. Is he also lying to me?

Published in:  on at 9:26 am Comments (8)

Saving all my love for you

This is one of the first songs I knew was very applicable to me.. there are a lot more songs all-throughout our relationship that I compiled and will uploade here one of these days..

by: Whitney Houston

A few stolen moments is all that we share
You’ve got your family, and they need you there
Though I’ve tried to resist, being last on your list
But no other man’s gonna do
So I’m saving all my love for you

It’s not very easy, living all alone
My friends try and tell me, find a man of my own
But each time I try, I just break down and cry
Cause I’d rather be home feeling blue
So I’m saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we’d run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient, just wait a little longer
But that’s just an old fantasy

I’ve got to get ready, just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
Cause tonight is the night, for feeling alright
We’ll be making love the whole night through
So I’m saving all my love
Yes I’m saving all my love
Yes I’m saving all my love for you

No other woman, is gonna love you more
Cause tonight is the night, that I’m feeling alright
We’ll be making love the whole night through
So I’m saving all my love
Yeah I’m saving all my lovin
Yes I’m saving all my love for you
For you, for you

Published in:  on May 26, 2007 at 9:29 am Comments (1)

I love you so much!

“I love you so much!” I once said to him, he replied by “Not too much”.

This is true. We mistresses should not love our partners too much. We should leave something for ourselves. So when the time comes that you and him must separate ways and call it quits even if it hurts it won’t hurt as much.

I love you! – That is enough.

Published in:  on May 4, 2007 at 6:04 am Leave a Comment

To demand? or Not to demand?

We decided to part ways, again, when we realized that we are demanding to much from each other. That is, I wanted him to be emotionally responsible and Mr. Married Man wanted me to need him less.In a normal relationship, lovers have the right to demand.

In a normal relationship a man should be emotionally responsible. In a normal relationship a man cannot ask a woman to need him less. BUT normal is not the kind of relationship we have and these kinds of demands are not allowed. In the first place we should not demand from our married partner, we should know better. We may however stress our point why, in my case, need him to be emotionally responsible WHEN I need him to, but we should be ready for what ever his response may be.

Remember that wives demand and mistresses demand less.

Published in:  on May 3, 2007 at 10:48 pm Comments (1)